Rejection. It has always ripped me to my core. I would hurt so badly whenever a friend moved away when I was a kid. In middle school and high school, I was never the one guys wanted to date, they always would go for one of my friends. In college I had bad FOMO and would go to parties and drink even though I didn’t really want to be there but I didn’t want that feeling of rejection. Even as an adult, when I don’t get invited to something that I see so many others get invited to my hear aches and I question “is it my personality? Am I too loud? Is it because I don’t dress like the other girls?”
This feeling reoccured Friday night when I saw so many girls invited over to a friends house, but I wasn’t invited. It stung. I cried. I had a choice to make though, I was at a fork in the road: one path leads to letting rejection define me; it makes me dwell in self hate and allows myself to believe there is something wrong with me. The other path leads to peace; peace in knowing that God loves who I am, that He created me just the way I am for a specific reason. Maybe I was rejected by some girls but I’m never rejected by the One who created the universe, the King of kings, Jesus Christ.
So what path did I take? The one right into the arms of Jesus. Do you feel rejected? Walk straight into His arms and tell him “Father, it hurts so bad. I just want friends. I just want to be seen. I just want to be loved. I just want to be included.” He knows, he understands because when Jesus was on earth, he went through the same feelings. Which is why we can trust His non judgmental, open arms and just hand it all to Him. He wants the hurt you have in your heart, He wants your pain, that’s why He became rejected and died on a cross for YOU. And me, and those girls who didn’t invite me or you to hangout.
So next time you get that feeling of rejection remember: you will never be rejected by the One who matters most; Jesus Christ.
“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full and well.” Psalm 139:13-14