June was a rough month for me; which is why I didn’t post anything for the whole month. This wasn’t intentional; it was like the I couldn’t form a sentence, like my words had been taken from me. I was resisting God as He was trying to prune me and pull out some nasty roots that had finally started to sprout, but these weren’t flowers. No, these were weeds. My sin had left an open door for the devil to march right in and stir up my thoughts. All of a sudden, it was like I didn’t know who I was anymore. It felt like all the progress I had made over the past year was gone and I didn’t know who I was in Christ anymore. But I still had the Word of God, the Truth laid as a foundation on my heart. There will be seasons where you feel like you are in the valley, or maybe it feels more like a deep dark ditch. It happens to every one, not just you or me. But even when you feel hard pressed or lost or alone, it is vital that you remember that Jesus has already won. Trust that he is there with you in this storm and that he will calm it.
When I’m in the valley, for me it seems more like a deep dark whole, my thoughts go haywire and it can feel like I have no control over them. 2 Corinthians 10:5 says
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
So how do you make your thoughts obedient to Christ? First you have to take them captive. Realize what they are, keep them confined. Write down every thought you are having and leave some space to write underneath it. Once you have them written down, flip open your Bible. If you don’t have a Bible or even if you do, you can open up google on the internet. Type in Bible verses dealing with _____ (whatever thought you are struggling with.) Click on the link you want and start writing those verses down on index cards or a poster or a marker board. Whatever you need to do to see them, memorize them, and let that truth resinate in your heart. So the next time you do have thoughts pop up, cause they will pop up again and again, you will know how to align them with the truth and make them obedient to Christ. You will start to notice your thought pattern will change, but it doesn’t come easy. You have to be aware of the unhealthy thoughts you have and make the decision that you don’t want them to reign in your soul.
Here are some thoughts that I struggle with and verses that help me (no I have not memorized all of these.)
- I feel like I can’t do anything right: 2 Corinthians 5:7; Romans 7:24-25 (18-25)
- I feel like I let everyone down: Deuteronomy 20:4; 1 Corinthians 15:57; 1 John 5:4
- I feel like all I do is mess up: Psalm 18:32; 1 Corinthians 3:!6; Proverbs 24:16
- I feel like I just make people unhappy: Phil 4:6-7
- The pain of this world is too much: 1 Peter 1:6-9; John 10:10
- I feel like the pressure is on me: Matthew 11:28; 2 Corinthians 4:8-9
- I feel like I don’t represent Christ: PSalm 71:16; PRoverbs 24:16a; Psalm 9:9-10; James 4:7
- This is too much for me to handle: Phil 2:13; Joshua 1:9; Isaiah 40:31; Deuteronomy 31:6; Psalm 28:7
- I feel unsupported: Galatians 3:26; 1 John 3:16; 1 Peter 5:6-7
- I feel unloved: John 3:16; Romans 5:8; Psalm 136:26; 1 John 4:7-8; Ephesians 2:4-5; Zephaniah 3:17; 1 John 3:1
- I feel like I should hide how I’m feeling: Psalm 18:2; Psalm 3:3; Psalm 55:22; Psalm 34:17; 1 Peter 5:7; Psalm 34:18
- I feel like I’m falling apart: 2 Corinthians 4:8-9; 1 Peter 5:10
Father God, help me. Help me make my thoughts obedient to your truth. I choose to walk in your light and live by your word, even when it’s hard, even when it hurts. Let me be bold and courages in this walk. Prune me, grow me, and show me how to be more like Jesus. Thank you for your Son and for defeating death. You are powerful and mighty to save. In Jesus name I pray, amen.